Welcome to the 20th, or 25th, or 31st iteration of my blog. I’m sure I am not the first to have struggled with how to manage my online identity – or lack thereof. Over the course of the last 15 years that identity has taken many shapes. The cycle goes something like this:
- Get bored with whatever I am reading, watching, or building in the physical realm.
- Feel a need for social interaction and expression via the internet.
- Convince myself that people might actually care what I have to say.
- Further convince myself that what I have to say is in some way unique and beneficial to those who might read it.
- Go through manic phase of excitement, thump my chest like Tony Robbins, and start a blog account.
- Realize that before I blog I need a purpose that will be the common thread that brings me together with the minions who will suddenly start following me.
- Confound myself with what that purpose might be, as my interests are vast, my knowledge deep, and my inner life very complicated.
- After deciding what that purpose is, I obsess over the proper blog “theme”, pictures, icons, and look and feel that will express that. After fumbling through hundreds of looks I settle on one, customize it, and begin the process of writing.
- I spend the first two weeks writing about all of the things that presently interest me, you know, those deep insightful things. The ones I was thinking about while becoming bored with everything mentioned in #1. I write and write and write.
- Then I sit back and wait. Build it and they will come they say (James Earl Jones haunts me with those words). But they never do.
- I check page views, links, likes, tweets, and all manner of other indications that my little corner of the internet universe means something to someone, to anyone, other than myself.
- Sometimes there is a trickle of interest. Other times there is nothing. Sometimes the only interaction I have involves the comment spammers we all know and love. You’ve “arrived” when the porn star spam bots start trying to take over your comments.
- Several weeks pass and I have made no new friends or acquaintances, no one has commented or said anything interesting, and quite frankly I am not even sure anyone has read or will read any of what I’ve written.
- So I decide to stop and stop I do. The blog drifts off into nothingness. Out of mind, out of site.
- At some point I forget I even did it until a year later when I get the domain renewal notice. Then I reflect and ask myself what the hell I was thinking and vow to never blog again….that is until I get bored.
I am now bored. So what the hell, let’s give this a go again. Eventually I may have minions. It’s more likely though that in 1 year I will be receiving a domain renewal notice and say to myself – you idiot. Not again.